When God has shown you favor, it is like nothing after that could ever come close. And if God is in your life 100% you never question it. In the times of Jesus and even before him the Jewish people constantly questioned God's laws and God's favor. When Jesus proved time and time again who he was, what his purpose was and what was to happen, his disciples even questioned him. Imagine the frustration of standing before crowds, healing the sick, bringing life back. Teaching everyone, not just a chosen few, what it going to take to know God. And still have your life threatened. And ultimately killed for it. That is Faith to the tenth power. To complete your mission. To die in spite of. No nothing has ever felt like this. John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.