It is so hard to just simply have faith. We as humans want to take everything into our own hands. And when it doesn't go our way, who do we blame? Most of the time it is someone else. It most certainly is not our selves. When in essence it should be our own selves we should blame.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do
not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.