To be a part of living testimony is deserving of a medal of honor. Going through the fire, coming out with grace and mercy is a feat. How do you know when this has been done? Take a good long look at the things that have happened. Ask yourself, could a person go through the pain and agony. The hurt, the suffering by themselves without breaking completely? The answer is no. Unless God has his hands on you. Weather you are aware at the time or not. An average person would not survive. When you live through "it", God has given you a pass. A time to reflect. A time to testify. A time to have the best relationship in the world with the most high himself. A time to say Jesus through you and your death I am surrendering myself as did you. God will you except me as I am? The whispered answer is "Child I already have".
Ephesians 1:7 In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace.