God said I am the Alpha and the Omega. The bible begins with Genesis and ends with Revelations. In life we have our beginnings and our ends. It is the in between that must be relevant and breath quality. If your beginning is rough or different from the fairytale most want to believe it should be, oh well so be it. It is the deceiver that lives the lie. God wants us to know who he is. He wants us to trust that he knows best for us. Each one of us has a life that is unique to us. Imagine if we were all the same? We are not. So let God lead you. Listen to that inner voice. There is so much wisdom to be picked up on if we look in the right places.
James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.